Where did all my motivation go?
So I'm sitting here knowing full well that there are a few pieces of work that I should be working on for my portfolio yet I'm not doing them. I can't seem to find the source for my lack of motivation. After I did my 15 day project I was pretty motivated to do stuff; even after I went to GDC '10. Now I feel drained as if all that happy feeling of modeling and texturing just flew out the door.
Right now I'm working for the Census Bureau but I haven't gotten anymore assignments from them for a month. I haven't gotten any response from any of the game companies I sent resumes to. And why would they respond, my portfolio isn't that great and I don't have any professional experience making video games. Does this sound like depression to you guys? or am I just procrastinating? Not to mention I don't have a lot of money(bills, bills, new computer, bills), I still live with my mother, and she wants to kick me out ASAP. Did I mention that I still need to work on my 2d skills as well. Not even all the E3 coverage got motivated. I must be crazy not to be motivated by all the cool stuff coming out. So where did all my mojo go(if I had any to begin with)?